但同时沉浸在无数的可能性里也是件很美好的事情啊！

最近那个草叶的段子让我想起了只翻了几页的Leaves of Grass，徒手捕鱼的妹子说Walt Whitman的诗不讲究传统押韵，热情直白真挚，倒是引起了我的好奇，让我重新打开多翻了几页……

翻到了这样一首：

34'

Beginning My Studies

Beginning my studies the first step pleas'd me so much,
The mere fact consciousness, these forms, the power of motion,
The least insect or animal, the senses, eyesight, love,
The first step I say awed me and pleas'd me so much,
I have hardly gone and hardly wish'd to go any farther,
But stop and loiter all the time to sing it in ecstatic songs.

这描述，不跟最近看的Stoner里老通考虑新书研究方向时的感觉一毛一样吗！Stoner从刚开始踏入文学之门感到自己的渺小与不足但又充满期盼与激动，到后来文学变为他的避难所，也是有几次耐人寻味的“开始”……

1. 刚决定弃农从文当文学教师的老通，发现未知领域太宽广，深吸一大口气——

24'

2. 在教学上终于摸索上道之后，老通考虑开始研究写书，正是这段跟前面老惠的诗不谋而合

28'

3. 不如意的婚姻生活逼得老通失去了自由的阅读空间，他不得不去办公室继续他的研究，然而在人流多杂喧闹的办公室也无法集中精神，最后他只能忧伤地流连于这“开始”的阶段，更深入的钻研也就不了了之了……

30'

最后是一段他刚开始觉悟怎么当好老师，十分细腻真挚

85'

He felt himself at last beginning to be a teacher, which was simply a man to whom his book is true, to whom is given a dignity of art that has little to do with his foolishness or weakness or inadequacy as a man...